if i perceive not having something, the most important thing would be to [re]member how i’ve been sustained in ‘moment(s)’ of ‘lack’, so as to imbue joy and illuminate the shadow of ‘need’. we are greater than sun and moon that sustains itself with and without rain. we all know sustenance of word, and silence. what love we must possess as we use them interchangeably in restoration of one another, or, what love must possess us.
Mass media. Presently and for the past few years intaking no video, audio, radio, stereo, television or movies. Interestingly enough, the great philosopher Joseph Campbell followed this practice all his adult life.
Intellectually I understand that I will heal and love the version of me who’s able to laugh again, she’s not here.
I was just released from the hospital a couple days ago for wanting to end my life…the turmoil and pain makes me not want to be here, puts me in spells of self hatred and fear, convinced that everyone will be better off without me, that I’m a burden. At this very moment I understand these not to be true despite my feelings, but the struggle is so real, and thus by definition insane i.e. not reality; my family loves me and things are not so bad or always will be agonizing that I should end my life.
I can relate to that. The lack of a long term goal almost threw me in that deep hole called depression. I guess you need to try things in order to figure out what would you like to accomplish in the long term.
Stability and security in my personal relationships.
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It’s you or those people?
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I feel destabilised because I have been too… raucous with my blog
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Money would ease a lot of my financial anxiety
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I can relate to that…
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Sense of peace and security
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How come those are missing? What is the reason?
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I recently moved overseas; therefore, I do not cure have my friends and family nearby.
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Not sure how the word “cure” got in there . . . curious thing.
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That must be tough. Is your move permanent or temporary?
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It is meant to be permanent, but I no longer think that way.
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How come?
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I’ve had plans that either fell through or that I changed; therefore, now I see life as something that is constantly changing; more fluid.
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More money for my start up business
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I’m sure they will come in time. The start is hard…
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Love and peace…😌😌
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Peace? What is messing up your peace?
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In my life there is no love, that’s why there is no peace…😁😁😁😁😁😁😁😁😁🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣
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if i perceive not having something, the most important thing would be to [re]member how i’ve been sustained in ‘moment(s)’ of ‘lack’, so as to imbue joy and illuminate the shadow of ‘need’. we are greater than sun and moon that sustains itself with and without rain. we all know sustenance of word, and silence. what love we must possess as we use them interchangeably in restoration of one another, or, what love must possess us.
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So it all comes down to love?
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all. all comes up to love.
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A distinct vision
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Interesting! Vision about what?
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Joy and restfulness.
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Well, what brings you joy?
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Thanks for asking. I get joy from meaningful conversations, time alone to reflect, and great art/books/movies.
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an answer to this question
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Only you can find that answer.
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Stable income
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How can you fix that problem?
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I need to get a good job like soonest…
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How is the job hunting going?
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I’m optimistic, I’m getting one before the year runs out..
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Financial stability
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What can bring you financial stability?
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Less corruption in our government and well a job that pays more the the minimum which there aren’t any here unless you become a corrupt politician
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A stable income and affordable health insurance
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I hope it’s not because you don’t face health problems…
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No. Paying for our health insurance takes half my husband’s paycheck.
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That’s horrible!
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Mass media. Presently and for the past few years intaking no video, audio, radio, stereo, television or movies. Interestingly enough, the great philosopher Joseph Campbell followed this practice all his adult life.
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Friends and a marketable skill
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What type of skill would you like to have (besides marketable)?
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I really don’t know. Something that will help me secure a good job when I get to Los Angeles.
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Time to do more.
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Lol, that’s easy.
Sanity…
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What makes you think you don’t have that?
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I’m going through a really tough time right now…
Intellectually I understand that I will heal and love the version of me who’s able to laugh again, she’s not here.
I was just released from the hospital a couple days ago for wanting to end my life…the turmoil and pain makes me not want to be here, puts me in spells of self hatred and fear, convinced that everyone will be better off without me, that I’m a burden. At this very moment I understand these not to be true despite my feelings, but the struggle is so real, and thus by definition insane i.e. not reality; my family loves me and things are not so bad or always will be agonizing that I should end my life.
Yes I really desire and need sanity at this time…
That’s really all I want for Christmas
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I’m so sorry you have to go through such tough moments… What thoughts and situations threw you into this depression?
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I’m addressing trauma for the first time.
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And it’s extremely difficult
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It is… what can help you to get better?
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Energy to do all the things I want.
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That and time to do everything…
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Financial stability.
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What can you do to get there?
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I’m back at work, so I’m on the right track! I was unemployed due to health problems for a year, so it’s been rough.
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A long term goal
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I can relate to that. The lack of a long term goal almost threw me in that deep hole called depression. I guess you need to try things in order to figure out what would you like to accomplish in the long term.
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Peace
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What messes up your peace?
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Unwilling commitments to others
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Not opening up to real people
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What is the main reason you don’t do it?
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Trusting issues
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Everything is important… 🙂
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In your opinion, why is everything important?
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Everything makes up the whole, one cannot concentrate solely on one part and basically ignore the rest…
“Every single thing that has ever happened in your life is preparing you for a moment that is yet to come”.
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Confidence
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In what?
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Anything, really. Like presenting for example.
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Happiness
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What do you think you need to be happy?
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the wisdom to learn from the past and build a better present
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What can you do to acquire that wisdom?
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I have no idea! 🙂
Now, really, I am just doing my best not to f–k things up again!
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A job
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How is the job hunting going?
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A cat. I really want a cat friend 🙂
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What is stopping you to get one?
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Allergies 😦
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