Yesterday this hit me: our emotions in a certain situation are not always triggered by that situation, but we don’t realize it. I know, I know… this doesn’t seem to be so much of a revelation. It’s obvious that sometimes we come with our emotional baggage in each new daily life. However, I believe there is a different side of that.
Imagine the following situation: you like to blog and you plan doing it every day for the rest of your life. You’ve started one week ago and you’re still pretty pumped about it, but you feel some anxiety when you need to open your editor to actually do some writing. Now the question is: how come you’re pumped and anxious in the same time regarding the same things? Is it fear of judgement or of the possibility of being rejected? If that’s the case, where is the excitement coming from?
In my opinion, a possible explanation is related to our ego. I think the excitement can come from the idea of what we might become. Our own idea of how our life might look like if we achieve the end goal of our actions can be the source of that excitement.
The same can happen regarding any situation. Let’s say that you feel excited when going on a trip, but the excitement itself might come from the fact that you’ll have the chance to eat your favorite food in that trip. You “selfishly” get something from that trip and that’s why you are excited in the first place.
The more I think about this idea, the more sense it makes. Our feelings can be created by some twisted interpretations of something merely related to our current situation, but we get pumped and excited about our present moments. It might seem that we enjoy that even though that’s not the source of that excitement.
How hard/easy is it for you to “track” the main source of your emotions?