Today’s a pretty rough day because I barely slept last night. And it’s not like I did anything… I only had a constant thought-flow with things that could go bad in my life (that and the fact that one of my cats made strange noises all night long). The thoughts were so bad that I literally got sick (headaches and stomachaches). And for what? For nothing!
I kept countering those thoughts and when I was just about to sleep, the noises got me back up and the thoughts got stronger. It was a forceful battle, especially because it’s been a while since I had a night like this.
Now I wonder: how many of nights like this does the humankind have because of their own thoughts? (cat not included!) How much do we harm ourselves just because we can?
It reminded me of the time I wrote my book and this was the exact reason why: instead of us owning our thoughts, they own us and they do whatever they want with us. We go through different stages of sadness, depression, anger and so on just because some wild thought appear and it f*cked up our mind. Is it fair? No, of course not. But that’s just the way it is (apparently)…