Welcome to another Sunday post about my quarantine reflections! This is turning into a weekly report of what I contemplate most on that given week.
In my post last week (here), I talked about emotional ups and downs quarantine is causing us to experience. So, this week, I thought a bit more on emotions.
Emotionality has a taboo towards it. If you are emotional, that is sometimes considered weakness. That may be true when you don’t know how to handle your emotions. You might get angry very easily, which becomes a weakness you need to turn into strength. When your emotions become your strength, so you know how to handle them, emotions become our guides into our internal integrity and our union with the universe.
I am an emotional person. I am a writer, so that is not a very surprising fact. I always knew that side of me but different stages of my life reflected how I dealt with them differently. In my teenage years, I just blocked them because it was too much and I did not have the tools to govern them. So, I became easily irritable and way too reserved. My college years were the first time I started actually addressing my emotions, a journey that still continues to this day. Each year, I became better at understanding them. Right now, I can say I am very much in tune with my emotions. I immediately know what I feel at any moment and why I have that emotional reaction. That helps me handle my emotional state better.
What are the benefits of this?
First off, once you are in touch with your emotions, you get rid of internal conflicts. That was my dream state to live in when I was a teenager. Since I was blocking myself, I had a lot of internal conflict, which caused my irritation at the time. And I was dreaming that some day, I only wanted to feel peace inside of me, not conflict.
Second, my emotions now became my tool to connect. I connect with people through them. I connect with anything around me through them. I always had the dream to feel the unity in the universe. I take this connection as a step towards achieving that dream.
The first benefit essentially leads to the second.
I am thankful for this quarantine for helping me advance more in my understanding of my emotions, hence allowing me to feel less conflict and more unity in me.
Are you an emotional person? How do you handle your emotions? Did you experience a change in the way you handled them? Has the quarantine helped or harmed you in terms of your emotional understanding? Let’s discuss!