How have you been? It has been a long time since we last interacted here! I missed you all! I took a long-ish break from writing but not from thinking. So, we will meet here regularly now to discuss what I have been thinking about. I want to discuss what it means to have internal peace today. I reflected on it and realized how different it can be understood and I am curious how you view this concept.
I think I have been the most peaceful internally that I have been recently. To my surprise, however, that is not because I am emotionally stable. That is, I don’t feel good or ok every day. In fact, some days I feel terrible, and that happens more often than I thought. And yet, even on those days, I feel peace inside. On the days I feel good, I still feel my peace. I didn’t know what this was all about initially but now I think I have an idea.
What I realized is this: I have peace even on my bad days because I finally accepted myself as an emotionally changing person. It is my true nature and I think I have known this deep inside always. But it did not look like a nice trait to have (because it makes you look unstable, which I don’t think I am), so I resisted my changeable emotional state. This led me to suppress certain emotions so I will look, an eventually be, emotionally stable. Did it happen? On the surface, yes. But I felt that I was producing internal conflicts and was not feeling really content.
So there you have it. My definition of internal peace. For me, it is accepting yourself in whatever state you are in, regardless of how bad it looks from the outside. This reduces my internal conflict greatly, so this in turn brings in peace. I really hope I can keep state of mind going.
So now let’s hear from you. How do you define internal peace? When do you feel the most peace inside? Do you think you mostly feel it?