I have not posted the last few weeks, sorry about that! It was the end of semester and I wanted to take a break and then a surprise happened. I had no hopes of being able to visit my home country this summer due to visa issues but boom, suddenly I am in Turkey😊 It was a pleasant surprise and I embraced it. Sometimes, unexpected happens out of nowhere. It gave me a lot of hope that life is beyond our limited perception and I can dream bigger😊
Since before my post on self-appreciation, I have been appreciating myself more and more and honestly, it feels great. Recently, I noticed one important where I congratulate myself more often than others: letting go.
I used to be very strict about my future plans as well as my daily plans. I mean, very strict. At some point, I started not liking this but I did not know where to go. Then I read ‘The Surrender Experiment’ by Michael Singer and that book gave me a perspective. Since then, I have been working on it and recently, I have been seeing the fruits. For example, when I learnt that the visa issue was resolved, I immediately booked my flight and left a few days after. I did not think twice about the fact that I am in the last summer of my PhD program and am going to be applying for jobs. I surrendered to what life served me and I am glad I did because now I am not only with my family but I also am able to do a lot more work than I was able to. I think visiting my parents gave me less time but more joy. Well, I need joy for productivity.
You can also see how surrendered you are with small things in life. For example, I brought my coffee machine from the US to Turkey because I became addicted to coffee (oh well). I was not sure if the machine would work because the voltage in Turkey is much higher than in the US, as far as I know. It did not. It was too much power for it and now it is not working. But it first happened, I felt no sadness and I just said ‘Oh well, things happen’. This, for me, is a sign of surrender. If you are not upset by everything, small or big, then you are surrendered.
So now, I appreciate myself for coming all the way from a very strict person to a better-surrendered person. I hope to keep this mentality because it is very relaxing and joyful indeed.
How about you? Do you tend to get upset by small things in life? How much do you feel you can surrender currently? How can you improve? Also, do you appreciate yourself? Just a reminder😊