Let’s talk about the future today.
Some years ago, I was the kind of person who had a very strict idea about how my future should look like and I got it all somehow. But then, at some point, suddenly, it started not working the way it used to. I was still envisioning my future in a similar way to the previous times but something was not working. Then, it hit me. I was being taught to let go of the future. I needed to understand that I was really not determining anything about the future. It was an illusion. What happened before was that God was just being generous with me, so He gave me everything I asked for (of course, with significant amount of work). When tables turned, I could not swallow it because ‘How could I not get I want?!’. It took me a long time to accept that I should not try to control the future. Now, it comes and goes but mostly, I really have minimal plans for the future. Honestly, this is much more relaxing and exciting and I hope I can keep this going for life, maybe even at a better shape.
Now this got me thinking and I wanted to ask you all. How would it be if we knew what would happen to us? Would you feel better and safer because you know what is coming for you? Or would you feel anxious? Personally, given my current state, I would probably not want to know what will happen in the future. I might tend to get anxious and start wanting things to happen already if I knew they would happen anyway.
PS: I am grateful for the times when I was strict with my idea of my future. It is this idea that made me work hard and get to where I am. But it was a phase, and a tiring one, so I am glad that is over.