I’m sorry, yo. For a lot of little and not-so-little things. . . . I’m sorry for all the times I thought I knew better; I’m sorry for not realizing the limitations of my own world view. I’m sorry for making To-Do Lists while you gave instructions I later needed. I’m sorry for snapping when … More SnapDragon Speaks: On The Apology.
I’m afraid of the dark. Like, for real. And it’s not because I think there are trolls in the basement, or Civil War ghosts in the attic. (But—ahem—now that I’ve revived that thought, I might crawl into bed even earlier tonight.) (pulls the blanket up to her chin) I’m afraid of my own mind. Because … More SnapDragon Speaks: On The Dark.
I have a real thing about utility. When I lived in the city, and spent all my time at my boyfriend’s apartment, it bothered me that my own four walls just sat there, waiting. No one home. Cups and cookbooks, sweaters and bags of loose-leaf tea just sitting still, perhaps wishing for a sign of … More SnapDragon Speaks: On The Used.
“Throughout our lives we long to love ourselves more deeply and to feel connected with others. Instead, we often contract, fear intimacy, and suffer a bewildering sense of separation. We crave love, and yet we are lonely. Our delusion of being separate from one another, of being apart from all that is around us, gives … More Missed Connections
To All The Friends I’ve Lost: I simply want to say hello, although it’s been so many years. Because even as time performs its cruel, relentless dance, I still remember you. I remember us. I still laugh when I think of all our ridiculous jokes; how many fears, dreams and secrets we shared; how many … More SnapDragon Speaks: To All The Friends I’ve Lost.
Once upon a time, when I had recently graduated from college and found myself alone in a large city, I felt those first unsettling pangs of depression. Quiet. So quiet. So very very quiet. At 22, it was the first time in my life I experienced true solitude. No parents. No siblings. No roommates. Just … More SnapDragon Speaks: On The Stranger-Friend.
Every one of us wants a good life, right? I don’t think there is anyone in this world that says: “F*ck good life! I want to live as miserable as possible!” The thing is that a good life is formed of multiple areas, which has different levels of importance, depending of what you want (career, … More Losing Focus: An important problem nowadays?
Have you noticed that you feel different in different environments? I’m sure you have so you probably wondered how is that impacting your life, besides your mood, thoughts and emotions. As for everybody, this pandemic had a huge impact over my life, especially since I’m working from home since March. Because of this and the … More Can environment kill creativity?
“There is only one thing that makes a dream impossible to achieve: the fear of failure.” – Paulo Coelho I have forever had this idea of myself that I don’t finish what I start. I have had this belief that I get really excited about things at the start of something but then I just sort … More Achieving Impossible Goals
I think there is great beauty in the space between: The space between sleep. The space between our brown-bagged lunches. The space between radio commercials. Life. It clicks by: In the flashes of headlights. The clanking of spoons. The aching of hands and feet. And no matter how hard we try, there is never enough … More SnapDragon Speaks: On The Space Between.
“Blame doesn’t empower you. It keeps you stuck in a place you don’t want to be because you don’t want to make the temporary, but painful decision, to be responsible for the outcome of your own life’s happiness.” – Shannon L. Alder Let’s be honest…we have all played the Blame Game. It is easy to … More The Blame Game
“You are damaged and broken and unhinged. But so are shooting stars and comets.” ― Nikita Gill If you have read some of my previous posts you are aware that I did not have an easy childhood…but then who among us has? You work with what you have, not what you wish for. I knew I … More We Are All A Little Broken
“I’d far rather be happy than right any day” – Douglas Adams We get addicted to the stories we are spinning. It feels good in our minds to “figure it all out” or “be in the know.” Somehow we believe that if we know what is happening we will be safer from it. I can … More Being Right is a Powerful Narcotic
“Wash out this tired notion that the best is yet to come.” – Dave Matthews I had to remind myself this week that motivation comes from within. It certainly does not come from the expensive, fancy bike I ordered and have been waiting for the past 7 weeks. It was supposed to be delivered next … More Motivation Comes From Within
“We try so hard to hide everything we’re really feeling from those who probably need to know our true feelings the most. People try to bottle up their emotions, as if it’s somehow wrong to have natural reactions to life.” Colleen Hoover I have been thinking about my “feelings” a lot lately. Emotional feelings that … More How Are You “Feeling?”
What is with us humans? Why do we have a tendency to trivialize other people’s problems, but when they happen to us, it’s the end of the effing world? We compartmentalize for our friends: Hey, at least you don’t have to worry about: the political nature of Academia; gas prices; sibling rivalry; no buffer zone; … More SnapDragon Speaks: On The Unwritten Page.
If I could start all over again, I’d only focus on my body being strong. The hell with the numbers. If I could start all over again, I’d go into meetings with confidence. I have a right to be here. If I could start all over again, I’d make more time for reading. For crafting. … More SnapDragon Speaks: On Starting Over.
I interrupt your regularly-scheduled blog reading to say: SnapDragon is not okay. Well, wait. That’s an exaggeration. I’m all right. I guess what I mean is: I get scared. I get overwhelmed. I get burned out. Don’t get me wrong. All things considered, I live a very privileged life. Security. Love. Comfort. Creativity. But that … More SnapDragon Speaks: On The Mess.
Yesterday I ate a piece of chocolate. Just a single square, wrapped in a golden foil. It had been chilled in the fridge. I like sweets this way. The cold and creamy sweetness danced on my taste buds. I savored it. For it was just another fleeting moment in time. . . . SnapDragon is … More SnapDragon Speaks: On The Moment.
Like an elusive vapor, my reflection floats, then gently fades before my eyes. Like a favorite novel, its binding and its pages warp with the inevitable passing of time. Yet its story–its spirit–stays the same. . . . When I look in the mirror I see a woman on the cusp of her 34th year. … More SnapDragon Speaks: On The Mirror.